Out of all the posts, I think this will be the most emotional one for me to write (in a really good way). I've been thinking a lot on how to convey all the thoughts I had racing through my head that day, but I believe I did a pretty good job on focusing and prioritizing the important things. Anything that fell out of that circle was not worth worrying over. One, I was marrying my best friend very soon and this was finally it! And two, there was still a lot to get done before I was standing next to him in front of everyone. For that second one, it was the most stressful but also the most distracting because it kept me busy. The distraction kept any feeling of butterflies in my stomach away and all nervousness, actually. I thought I was being so composed and then all of a sudden...it was my turn to walk out with my dad down the aisle. I don't know what happened, but the second I saw everyone standing and looking at us, my legs wobbled and tears welled up in my eyes. I was so thankful my dad was there for support and help me walk straight. So much for composure! Haha.
As we turned to walk directly towards Peter, I saw him look up towards the ceiling several times in attempt to ward off tears and I almost lost it several times. This walk now felt like a mile long. I instantly regretted not writing down my vows like Peter had done. After rehearsing it in my head countless times, it still came out in a jumbled and nervous mess. Now, I can laugh about it but then, I couldn't believe how emotional I had become! Of course, I expected it, but not so much that my hands were shaking. Our close friend (and officiant), Sharif, was telling us before the wedding about a wedding he went to (I think it was his brother's) where the bride and groom told each other their vows some distance from everyone so only the two of them could hear what they said to each other. If I remember correctly, while they did that, there was also music playing and the officiant recited something to the guests as they waited. I thought that was so interesting and a nice departure from how it is usually done. We might have done something similar if we had thought about it more, but I like how ours turned out. I'm glad I got to experience all the feelings because it was genuine and true to ourselves. Gosh, I love him so much.
I also want to point out that my beautiful sister is in this post at last :) Unfortunately, for a couple of years now, she has been suffering with an illness and recently got officially diagnosed as having Gastroparesis. It is still fairly new to doctors and there is no exact treatment or cure so she is still figuring out how to live with it. She had been feeling better months before the wedding which made us all happier for her, but then about a month or so before the wedding, she started feeling worse again. I'm just so glad she was able to be there even if she couldn't spend more time with us at the house we rented. I knew she felt better resting and taking it easy back at the inn. She tried her best and she looked beautiful in her dress! I love you Cindy.
The second half are portraits and group photos that Jau also did such a great job with! We love, love that he used film for some things. Our favorite are the black and white ones of Peter and I, looking straight at the camera. The natural gritty texture from peeling the instant film backing satisfies my love for vintage and nostalgia. But really, all the photos came out beautifully. Thanks again to everyone who is keeping up with these posts. We're already more than halfway through!
ceremony venue: Jaffrey Meetinghouse | officiant: Sharif Pendleton | wedding photographer: Jauhien Sasnou | photographer assistant: Taisya Kuzmenko
*Any photo editing was done ourselves (if needed) to keep the photos somewhat consistent with the exception of photos by our wedding photographer, Jauhien Sasnou, who edited his own photos. Original photographer noted under each photo.